Well hello there, lovelies! I wanted to do a little check-in. Where we can chat about intuitive eating and body image and life and things we’re learning. Real talk, you know? So if you have the time, drop a comment about the struggles or joys (or both!) you’ve been facing. And if you have a blog, feel free to link to a recent post where you share your thoughts. <3
Oh, and really quick–my lovely friend Emily was kind enough to have me on her podcast! If you want to listen here’s the link. It’s also on the podcast app. I loved chatting with her–thanks so much Emily!
So for some real talk. This weekend, I didn’t prioritize taking care of myself in the way I usually do. For one, I didn’t drink enough water. Over the summer, I was a water drinking champ. Not obsessive/over-the-top, but I made sure I got plenty of water. And it made me feel good. But since coming to school, I feel like I haven’t been drinking quite enough water and I think it might be what’s causing me to get headaches.
Two, I ate a lot of sugar. We’re talking chocolate brownie ice cream, chocolate chips, chocolate in pancakes (are you sensing a theme here?), doughnut holes (I haven’t had those in forever), most scrumptious homemade gingerbread cake with lemon curd and possibly some other things I’ve forgotten. Of course, there’s nothing wrong with eating sugar. Obviously, you want to make choices that feel good for your body. But the moral of the story here isn’t don’t eat sugar. In addition to thinking about your body, you also need to think about yourself as a whole person, and not just a whole person but a whole person with an unending number of ties to other people. Are you in a social setting where not eating the cupcake would make you feel left out? Will eating the cupcake add to the experience? Do you want the cupcake?
I enjoyed what I ate over the weekend. And at the end of Sunday, I was actually excited to eat all the veggies and legumes and grains and protein and fat the next day. In restricting days if I let myself eat “too much” sugar one day, I never felt excited to eat more “normal staples” the next. This was for two reasons, I think: one, because I saw it as punishment. And two, because I was so out of tune with my body that I couldn’t even tell what I actually wanted or needed.
So anyways. I ate a lot of (delicious) sugar-filled things over the weekend. The next day, my body wanted other foods. So that’s what I ate. The end.
Another thing: I haven’t been prioritizing sleep as much as I would like to. Sometimes of course, especially on weekends, it’s worth it to stay up a little later. But on school nights when I’m just studying, I’d like to make sleep more of a priority. It makes me feel so much more focused and physically better the next day. Not to mention I’m less of a grump. Important stuff.
And one last thing. Even though I just wrote a post about it, I sometimes still have trouble being still in this way: instead of being still and resting in my true identity, I scramble and hustle and strain to put my identity in other things. As a human, relationships. As a musician, music. As a student (and this is where I find myself struggling the most), my grades.
An interesting thing about college is that people get defined by their majors. Which makes sense in some ways. After all, isn’t that why you’re at college? To get a degree in your major? One thing I’ve been trying to do is when people ask what my major is, answer “I’m studying sociology” instead of “I am a sociology major.” Not that there’s anything wrong with saying “I’m a soc major”, but the subtle difference in words reminds me that the subject I’m taking the most classes in (which, funny story, isn’t actually true) doesn’t make up who I am.
So in those times when I feel the pull to put my identity in my achievements or goals, I need to remember to still my strivings.
Love to you! <3 And again, if you’d like to, go ahead and share some of your “real talk” moments from the last week (or month or year).
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